Doing things slower.
I move with a “rush” about me. I’m always at least slightly anxious. I’m unsure why. I think it’s just the setting my body and my mind has gotten used to. I don’t let myself just take my time — I have to be efficient and move quickly.
I think this is because I was always rushed. I’ve never really been allowed to take my time. I’ve learned over-time that taking your time was being “too slow”. Everyone is impatient and I don’t want to hold anybody up.
There’s no reason for me to be like this. I’m going to start taking my time.
I don’t have to rush myself to do anything. I can chill. I can be relaxed. Especially on my free time. I’m not sure why I feel the need to move so efficiently but I’m not going to try to dig into it. What’s important is that I change it.
Right now, even as I type this entry, I’m choosing to take my time. Moving slower will be healthy for me. I need to work against that sense of “rush” and “go” that I have about myself. It’s a habit I need to break.
As long as I can remember to move slower, I will.