This prompt was inspired by the last, entry, “What makes you feel satisfied”.

I wrote about self-sabotage, just a little bit. I mentioned that my self-sabotage looks like me not feeling like doing the things I know will move me forward or help me in some way. So I created a separate prompt just to explore self-sabotage for me.

I emphasize “me” because I don’t believe that self-sabotage can be defined the same way for everyone. We’re all different and so, our brains work against us in different ways.

Anyway, here’s my entry:

My self-sabotage is passive. It’s all in my thoughts. I don’t think anybody from the outside would be able to spot it. I’ll know what I have to do then I’ll talk myself out of it. Somehow, I can convince myself that something is more difficult or tedious than it actually is…

Sometimes it looks like perfectionism. Nothing can be “good enough”… Whatever “good enough” is. There’s always something that needs to be fixed or adjusted before I can present my work.

Always. It never fails.

That feeds into my procrastination, another flavor of self-sabotage. “I can always do that tomorrow”.

I don’t get it.

That’s all the self-sabotage that I notice.

Naturally, this would raise the question:

How can I stop self-sabotage??

I don’t think I can. That doesnt mean I can’t get past it though. I just don’t think it’ll go away. It’ll always be there.

What I can do for now is just recognize it and act though it. I can call it out and decide not to pay it any attention. 🤷🏾‍♀️